Tuesday, January 5, 2010


700. A number dieters strive for, a number parents and doctors raise their eyebrows at. "Not enough," many people would say...if they knew that was how many calories I've had today.

Then why does it feel like a failure?

I've been doing this too long...1,000 calories is my limit, 2,000 is out of the question, 200 is a victory, and 700 is somewhere in the middle. 700 = blah.

I'm still floundering around in the same weight range. Stupid New Years, stupid groceries, stupid days home alone while everyone is at work and I'm stuck "vacationing" with the refrigerator. At the same time it's not that bad. My taste for many former binge-foods is subsiding rapidly...and it gets to the point where I open the fridge door and nothing looks appetizing. I was home alone the other day and actually decided to binge, like "this is my day," and I only ended up drinking iced tea and orange juice; eating cucumbers and white rice.

Happy 2010 everyone :)

Resolution time? I think so.

My resolution is this year is simple, as have my other ones been for the past few years. They all pertain to weight loss. Last year I vowed to reach a size 2 by summer. I fit a size 3 at my low point in April, then gained and haven't lost significantly since that time.

This year, I want to reach 120. By 2011, at some point, I have to have been 120 lbs. Maintaining that 120 would be so perfect. It's difficult for my height to reach that weight, but I feel that once it was on the scale I would fall in love so deeply that I would never be able to let that number go.

Here's a thinspo video I found for you all...



  1. Thank you for all your wonderful posts and such a great video. Your blog is wonderful, maybe check mien some time.

  2. I know just what you mean about 700. Everyone says it's not enough, but it feels like so much too much.

  3. i know what you mean about 700, i've had 53 today, im 13 and i need support, someone to keep me motivated, if your interested, email me- leahnathanson@Yahoo.com thanks x

  4. Hi, God 700 that sounds good, haha, i'm sorry too say i'm nowhere near that number a day :(, i also need help to stop binging and keep motivated, lilmissfabulas@hotmail.com x

  5. Hey, i was just wondering how tall you are? thanks:)

  6. you should check out www.prothinspo.com for tons of tips and thinspiration, the site is insane.. just passing it on.. loveya

  7. Hi, i'm french.
    I juste want to know if you take something special to loose so much weight. For exampel like Nicole Richie, Lindsay Lohan. Is it true that both took Clenbuterol and that is the reason why they look so beautiful today ?
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  8. I'm just starting, i need help!! I binged today :( like majorly. I need motivation!! I'm 12 (soon to be 13)and 5'7 and like 136 ish..?? I need motivation help help help!! Anyone!! Email me at: mirandagraciejune@live.com

    p.s. dont ask on the names for the accouns :/ Lmao

  9. Hi, I just want to say something that you all have already heard. You shouldn't go so extreme, thin is NOT beautiful but disgusting and yeah you should be slim but not tiny., thin and bony. Please if you won't eat lots just try and eat 1000 kcal a day. PLEASE.

  10. Ok, so I just read that one of you is 5'7 and 136 pounds? That's not fat, that's HEALTHY. This "thin is beautiful" thing is a joke. Looking like a few twigs thrown together is not attractive. Just eat, your body needs the nourishment.

  11. I don't get that. 700 - 1,000 calories is not too little, as long as you are being healthy about what you put into your body, drink lots of water, keep an alkaline pH level and get your vitamins.

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